Mangalore,Sept 2012
When I was ten, 15 year olds were like seniors to me. So if mom would say so and so aunt who visited us is 30 something, I surely use to feel she was too old for me to go and talk to or spend time with!..or the next door neighbour who died recently was 50 something..I surely use to feel ..OMG they lived this long..or oh, 50 something, is too old..and its OK may be if they die!50 was like a big number to me and I never thought I would one day be fifty myself! But time does fly and I don't feel its slowly anymore..time just flew..or calenders just turn pages..its too damn fast, times just racing...and so are we...! Birthdays never were special days then now or anytime in my life, but like any other day, I always said! So friends were really surprised when they heard I never cut a cake before so they forced me to cut my first birthday cake when I was 40! I was so uncomfortable with the whole deal..cutting a cake, people around me wishing, hugging, and all that was so new to me. Similarly family in USA made me cut a cake, during one of the times I was with them on my birthday! It was a great feeling to have family and friends who care for me, love me, and are happy for me..but all said and done it was not my scene! I enjoyed hosting birthday parties for my kids...for all their mile stones..from 1st birthdays to 20th..! Which ever they were ready for, in what ever way I could plan of! But no special plans ever for myself. Kids or family never surprised me with any special gestures either! My cousins and me were planning to go to Pondicherry and I decided that's where I will go for my 50th Birthday with these special people in my life! They are very dear to me, and 3 or 4 of us is just the right number I can handle on my 50th birthday ! But due to some unavoidable reasons, we some how could not go to Pondi during that time, but I did turn 50! It was like any other day, some special gestures, sentiments were thrown!, ..but nothing major..I just moved on with time..! But Before I hit 51, my cousins decided we must do this trip and so with very little planning we just drove off to Pondi from Bangalore. It was the right gift I was waiting for, and thanks to my dear cousins..we had lovely time. Physical relaxation, and mental exercising for a change did more good than my normal other way round trips! Pondi is artists delight, and Auroville was very welcoming! Lot to discover, unwind, and experience. From food to places..from thoughts, to actions..! I had great time, at 50! 10,20, 30 or even 40 years may come in ones life time again,( why not one may surely hit 80, right?) but I don't think I would see another 50, in my life time( Not that I want to live that long) So this 50 before it becomes 51 is very special to me. I did a lot and grew a lot more! Happenings were too many, may be with more stress than I could have asked for! But I don't want to complain nor remember the pains. Actually from oh..50 !!, I would say.., at last, I am 50!
When I was ten, 15 year olds were like seniors to me. So if mom would say so and so aunt who visited us is 30 something, I surely use to feel she was too old for me to go and talk to or spend time with!..or the next door neighbour who died recently was 50 something..I surely use to feel ..OMG they lived this long..or oh, 50 something, is too old..and its OK may be if they die!50 was like a big number to me and I never thought I would one day be fifty myself! But time does fly and I don't feel its slowly anymore..time just flew..or calenders just turn pages..its too damn fast, times just racing...and so are we...! Birthdays never were special days then now or anytime in my life, but like any other day, I always said! So friends were really surprised when they heard I never cut a cake before so they forced me to cut my first birthday cake when I was 40! I was so uncomfortable with the whole deal..cutting a cake, people around me wishing, hugging, and all that was so new to me. Similarly family in USA made me cut a cake, during one of the times I was with them on my birthday! It was a great feeling to have family and friends who care for me, love me, and are happy for me..but all said and done it was not my scene! I enjoyed hosting birthday parties for my kids...for all their mile stones..from 1st birthdays to 20th..! Which ever they were ready for, in what ever way I could plan of! But no special plans ever for myself. Kids or family never surprised me with any special gestures either! My cousins and me were planning to go to Pondicherry and I decided that's where I will go for my 50th Birthday with these special people in my life! They are very dear to me, and 3 or 4 of us is just the right number I can handle on my 50th birthday ! But due to some unavoidable reasons, we some how could not go to Pondi during that time, but I did turn 50! It was like any other day, some special gestures, sentiments were thrown!, ..but nothing major..I just moved on with time..! But Before I hit 51, my cousins decided we must do this trip and so with very little planning we just drove off to Pondi from Bangalore. It was the right gift I was waiting for, and thanks to my dear cousins..we had lovely time. Physical relaxation, and mental exercising for a change did more good than my normal other way round trips! Pondi is artists delight, and Auroville was very welcoming! Lot to discover, unwind, and experience. From food to places..from thoughts, to actions..! I had great time, at 50! 10,20, 30 or even 40 years may come in ones life time again,( why not one may surely hit 80, right?) but I don't think I would see another 50, in my life time( Not that I want to live that long) So this 50 before it becomes 51 is very special to me. I did a lot and grew a lot more! Happenings were too many, may be with more stress than I could have asked for! But I don't want to complain nor remember the pains. Actually from oh..50 !!, I would say.., at last, I am 50!
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