Silence........

Mangalore...Jan2012
"Some questions can only be answered in silence" ! How many times I must have read this sentense written by Sri Sri Ravi shankar! Silence can answer questions? how can that be...! I never understood, and just left it at that as I was busy in my active life, and not understanding that was OK with me! AS I was watching the different celebrations people( including my family) all over the world were doing to welcome the new year 2012...I had no questions in my mind. Actually I did not ask any questions to my self thinking that I wont have any answer for it! But in all sincerity I was dying to ask "Why me?" I wanted to cry but knew no use....! Yes,all of a sudden out of blue, I landed myself in a hospital with a back injury,and it was a silent signal for my other wise active life, to pause, as the doctor assured, not stop! I was praying God, please let my back be better,and my reports be normal...but of course Gods wish... !! I was to stay on bed for the next few weeks with out any outside activities! Well, I just watched the first week of New year, and then the second, then the third...then the....,!! of course in Silence! I have no choice...! I saw my dear pet...sick and still trying to communicate with all of us.. we all were doing our best round the clock, for him...silently telling him, come on..don't give up! You have to pull thru..you can, and you need to! I prayed to God once again...Please God...let him be all right, let him come out of this...but of course Gods wish! I just watched my dear pets big eyes silently telling me, its time and he has to say good bye...! Silence!! I Mourned,clinging on to his memories through tears and sorrow ..but in Silence!! I see lot of activity all around...2012.., New year, new hopes, excitement..! From where I was to where I am I felt nothing but silence! I smiled at family and friends who came to see me, cheer me, God bless them! I spoke to loved ones over the phone, every single day, who tried to encourage me with their love and kind words. So much positive energy, so much hope..am I not lucky? In my this, one day Up and one day Down phase of life.. all I feel is just silence! My inner self, as I enquire is giving me nothing but Silence! Then I suddenly understood this Silence! I am better than so many of those people who are fighting with bigger battles than mine! There is so much pain around, so much helplessness..and for some no hopes at all, what so ever! Then why am I so worried for this small, little, tiny pause? Sad in this Silence? I have to celebrate this silence, if nothing else! AS I rightly read,( or he rightly said) Some questions can only be answered in Silence! So this is my time of Silence! As this became clear to me, I immediately got an answer for the "Why Me"? ,when I asked my self...! The answer was Silence! All other answers are just thoughts and thoughts can never be complete! Only Silence is complete!